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So, Three friends are in a car…out pops two felonies and a snitch!

There’s really no way to sugar coat it so…by a show of hands, who else has been arrested for a felony drug warrant, on their birthday?  Aw, come on…no one??  Yeah, well I can’t say I am all that surprised.  I am usually in a class all my own – why stop with this?  Fun Fact: felony drug warrants have NO BOND which means you can’t bail out of jail until you see the Judge and he decides if you can get bond or you stay in jail until you have your trial/plea it out and it’s all over…so yeah, I knew I wouldn’t be spending my birthday at home – no chance in Hell.

The law is a funny beast, not funny ‘ha-ha’ either, but funny ‘oh you’re fucking kidding me’.  Funny, if you have a fucker friend in the car with you and they sell a second fucker friend of yours a few opiates…you…the driver, the ‘hey can you gimmie a ride?’ person, YOU are charged with the EXACT same felony distribution of an opiate as THEY are.

How, pray tell, did they (the fucking police) get wind of this?  So glad you asked…the second fucker ‘friend’ that bought them….he wore a nice fat WIRE on us.  Yes, he slid out of a charge of his own by wearing a wire…his name, you ask?  JOSH CADDELL from Leavenworth, Kansas…yes indeedy.

What kind of time can one get for such a charge?  Why, at the bad end of the slide, 33 months in prison.  Yes sir.  Four pills.  Prison.

This is my kind of hell, what I have been dealing with.  Art is the only thing keeping me half sane.  I would love some communication on this/about this/about anything BUT this, any and all of the above.  Just some human contact.

Much more on this, I just feel open and exposed now, which is ok.  It’s good, I need this.

Goodnight for now,


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follow up to “mini-book” post

anyone? hellooo? lol

I’ve been working on my own “Who am I?” mini-book and I was wondering if anyone else was going to whip up their own version and if they would like to share their progress or finished book?

I would LOVE to see and post pics of your mini-book!  Please reply to this post or email pics to me at:

lookin forward to seeing your art!

(as always any other art is welcome and I’d love to post work from other artists)

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Calling All Amateur Dr. Phil’s/Oprah’s (no Springer’s, thanks)

When something weighs on my heart and just will not let up, I naturally turn to art or writing; more accurately, both.  If those things fail to bring relief I usually end up throwing some sort of unfocused temper tantrum at inappropriate times so this time I’m going to try a different approach.  I thought I’d do the writing part and at the same time work on my sharing issues and let it out here, so be nice wordpressers  = )

First, a short bit of background:

the players:

Frank-love o’ my life, husband.  J-Frank’s older sister, very close to him.  B- J’s very long-time husband, known for how close they are after so many years together.

J and B had one child who is now adult, out of the home.  They are, always have been, highly organized and driven; each of them working all of the over-time possible and even taking part-time jobs even though they each had actual careers.  They worked very hard and achieved the things they wanted most; a beautiful home, a custom Harley Davidson for B, the ability to buy vintage trucks and the things that enhanced their lives.

Even with their self-imposed work schedules a key part of their marriage has always been that what time they did plan to have off of work was used to the absolute fullest, always together.   Once all of the working and saving began to pay off they took trips to the places that they loved or that interested them.  I’d say they really began to hit that sweet spot about 6 or 7 years ago.

One thing about B, he is a LOT like my Frank, A LOT.  That’s a whole new post however, let’s just say that you either really love Frank and B or you just cannot stand them – BUT even those who hate must admit that they respect the hell out of them both.  Very hardworking men – MEN, that’s the other similarity; they consider themselves men in every sense of the meaning.  Respect your elders, work hard and honestly, loving husband and father and have a strong sense of pride in your appearance and abilities.

In their mid-fifties, J and B were about to retire comfortably and take those long-term trips planned for so long – spend the quality time together that they had earned with all of that extra work.

About 3 years ago we got the news that B had been diagnosed with prostate cancer and that it was already well dug in, advanced.  J was beside herself, my Frank was angry and filled with stubborn hope because, as he said, ‘he will be fine because no one like B deserves anything less than a miracle’.

For the first year we were happy to go right along with that, B was doing well and was still up and runnin, feisty, went on biking and a couple of mini-vacations with J.  Remission!  We were so thrilled.

Then last September he stopped by our house and hung out a bit, talking of his treatment and openly discussing the time limits the doctors had given his life (3 months).  He had begun to lose weight again but this time it was going faster and was much more noticeable.  And, yes, he was angry. Pissed OFF.  Been cheated.

Always the planners; details became even more important over those next 3 months as B went from a strong, muscular 57-year-old proud man to looking like a man in his 70’s and one that could almost fit into the clothes of our 10-year-old daughter.  J is a registered nurse and took a year off of work to care for him full-time.  It really just…swooped downhill from that time on.  The transformation of this big strong man not only took its toll on J, but my Frank seemed to be in a state of shock after each visit.

B's older brother, J and B. Early August 2011

So, August 31st, J called Frank at work and told him that hospice and the doctor were there and said that there were just hours left.  Hours.

Frank is a foreman for a commercial roofing company and was working an hour away not to mention the time it takes to dry in or tighten up a roof so that a crew can leave it for the night in such a way that even if it rains, the building will be waterproof.  He hauled ass as did his crew and sped into town.  Frank walked into our house, grabbed the keys to his personal truck and was about three feet from our front door when J called him, B had just passed.

All of this I tell you to show you the type of man B was; private and stubborn, set in his ways…and such a good man.  It was no shock to any of us that B had left J with strict wishes for no kind of funeral – nothing even resembling a funeral.  So, while all of us gathered at J and B’s that sunny afternoon, standing out in little groups in their yard and on the porch, J was inside with the hospice nurse giving B his final bath and changing him into the outfit she had made ready for him.  Frank left ‘his chair’, the spot that he’d occupied nearly nightly for months while he and B watched movies and talked details, during this private time and only during this time.

With the nurse gone and given instructions not to have the funeral home come for B for at least 2 hours, we all set about following what B had wanted.  Frank took his usual spot, kitty cornered three feet or so from the foot of B’s couch; the t.v. turned off and just the milky light from the 2 skylights we came in and paid our respects.  We sat and talked,visited and looked at photos up on the wall from just 5 months before when B looked like B.

This weekend J is having a get-together that will in no way walk, talk or sound like a funeral and so, thankfully she has this plan to…well, plan.  Details to tend to, arrangements to make.  Frank and I worry that after that, what?  Do you see what we are fretting over?  See, the lovely man he really was, he made sure that J would never have to worry about money, that everything was paid for, all accounts squared up.  Not only was she so used to being a bit of a workaholic there was the all-consuming job of being B’s full-time nurse as well; and that didn’t wind down slowly, but just stopped.

J has always been a romantic, really would have loved to have a funeral to honor B yet he did leave a lasting effect on her because she totally despises the cards and letters that come to her now, filled with “Sympathy in your time of loss” and words like “your dearly departed husband” etc.  All of the usual pre-determined socially acceptable behaviors will, in J’s case, probably get you socked in the eye.

I am going out for a visit tomorrow and I had several pieces that I had been juggling, wanting to give J something special from just myself but not knowing what was “ok”.  Then last night I literally sat down with no real idea what I was even doing and just ran through the “Rise Above” piece.  When Frank saw it the first thing he said was “that’s perfect, that’s the one.”

Rise Above on 10x10 stretched canvas

Really?  Yes, I like this piece very much and I actually feel it’s pretty appropriate for J, but you know how we are with that nagging doubt thing.  I suppose I wrote this post for 3 reasons:

  • to write all of these feelings out, as therapy.  (I do feel much lighter, even right this minute)
  • to get any opinions on the “Rise Above” piece for J
  • with J finding herself alone and no ‘to do’ list pressing, how can I help?  Would a visit from me and my art journaling travel kit sound like something I should try?  Art journaling has saved me and so many others…what do you think?

Thanks to anyone who stuck it out and read this far.  I would be so grateful for any thoughts on any of it, even if you have no opinions one way or the other.


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A Tweak Here n There

Rise Above on 10x10 stretched canvas

‘Rise Above’ I started this piece last night, you can see it and others I started last night under the new page for September 2011 art; under the ‘My Art’ parent tab. (read below)


Please take a little note and a look at the Pages menu as I’ve made a couple of changes and additions.  Under the About tab it will drop down to a new nesting page “Personal Photos” where I’ve added some of my favorite shots of my family doing the things that make me adore them.

Under the tab “My Art” I have added a ‘September ’11 Art’ page just for the pieces that I am working on/finished this month.  I will continue to nest monthly pages this way so I can better track what I’m doing, and to have a nice, neat place to keep them.

Thank you – I welcome any comments on anything, especially opinions on the artwork…I am trying to improve and really need all the feedback I can gather!


new pages:

Personal Photos

September Art


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30 Day Blog Challenge -still catching up-Day 10

Day 10-Your Guilty Pleasure (or pleasures)


First off, why must we feel guilty about pleasure?  America is so bold and free, open to the ‘New’ and on the cutting edge of everything, yet when we stop all of the work for a moment to do any activity just for the sheer delight of it we feel terribly guilty.

“I should be doing the laundry.  I should be mopping the floors.  I should be doing something constructive…etc.”

Even though I am intent on becoming an artist on a level that would provide income, I feel bad when I sit down and start drawing or painting – because I love it so much!

In so many other cultures (Italy comes to mind) pleasure is not just okay to pursue, it is encouraged.  I’ve never been, but I would guess that an Italian who worked like Americans do (monday-saturday) and did not stop to relish the rewards he has earned would be looked on as a madman.

And who can mention pleasure and a little decadence without thinking of lovely Marie Antoinette?  I think she got a bit of a raw deal…imagine becoming a Teen Queen and not going a little crazy with the dress, shoes, hair…chocolate budgets?

With that…on with my guilt-free pleasures!

1. Drawing, painting, collaging (is that a word?), art of any kind. LOVE it all!!

2. Reading! Oh…I’ve always adored books.  I see them as beautiful, love the smell of a library – Barnes and Noble , well I get lost for hours.  No one in my family will even get in the car if there’s a chance that we will end up there.

3. Same as with bookstores, the big art supply stores, the little mom & pop shops; love them all!  I browse and hem & haw, add things to the cart only to swap it out for something else later.  I go up and down aisles three and four times over.

4. Fresh fruit grape popsicles.  I eat the entire box by myself, in one day.

5. Thrift stores.  There’s a Spanish section of downtown Kansas City, Kansas about 35 minutes from my house and they have two of the best thrift stores in the world!  I’ve tried to go to the ‘upper-class’ thrift stores and – well they believe their crap is made of perfumed gold.  They charge about 50 cents less than retail and do so with a straight face.  No thanks!

I love a big semi-disorganized second hand shop.  This one in particular has name brand clothes, you know from those snooty shops that choke you to death with cologne as soon as you walk past the door?  Yeah, we all know what even a pair of underwear can run you in that place.

6. Energy drinks, well not drinks but the little energy shots.  5 hour power and the like.  I love them!  They actually do work pretty well and many a day they’ve kept me from zonking out mid-afternoon.

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Art blog- Amaaazing artist. Looove her!

Sleep and her Sisters

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Holy Unfinished Art-Pieces, Batman!

I hijacked Frank’s i-phone tonight to snap some pics of  the ‘couple’ of unfinished pieces that I’ve got in the hopper.  I ran his battery dead and just in general, look like an ass lol.

If anyone has any specific ideas on one of them – like what the heck to do to finish one – I’d love to hear it.  I am very consistent about getting RIGHTTHERE and turning away and running.  Not sure why but I am terrified that those last few touches will destroy everything – especially on the ones that I really like.

In no particular order, here’s what I mean:

Unfinished collage girl


(above) this is my new favorite size/shape paper to work with.  It’s heavy weight Strathmore Watercolor Cold Press 6″ x 18″; 140 pound (300g/m)

Strathmore 6″ x 18″

2 page butterflies


orange bg


I’m gonna work on some stuff before posting any of the others…it’s really eating at me that there’s so many in such a state!  What a mess, grrr.



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2 page Art Journal Page (random art)

Artist-Own it




Artist/Own It

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“How Do You Say I Love You” Art Journal Page

Te Amo

Started this little 2 page piece today in my small art journal.

Gesso, Acrylics, Pitt Artist Markers, white out pen.

“I love you” in Spanish and French.

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Start Fresh

Usually the ‘start over’ urge comes with Spring-time, but that’s with ‘normal’ people and that I am not.  So, the spring cleaning is beginning now, in the Fall- and I’m starting with my blog.  I’m determined to get over the hard-wired habit of mine to journal by hand, on paper – old fashioned style.

Like I’ve said in many ways and many times over, I wish to be part of an art community, even if the community is small.  Someone to collaborate with, commiserate with and share the art that we create.  I’m going to make a promise to myself to post daily and share what I’m doing and hope that, soon, others will start to share also.

So, that’s that.

And I’m working on about a ga-zillion pieces, someday I will get over the freakish habit I have to get a piece Alllmost finished and then lose my confidence and just…Stop.

I’m going to be posting a few of what’s going on right now, what’s in that ‘almost there’ stage!

I would LOVE to hear from anyone!!


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