How have you changed the past 2 years?
I had what I thought was a close friend turn on me in such a way that it shook my entire life. It was such a total betrayal in every sense of the word that even now, 9 months after I found out about it, I still get so hurt, angry and in a state of disbelief that I cry-and I never cry. You know those embarrassing tears, like when you are in a fight with someone and you are SO MAD that you cry? Those kind of tears.
So, where my husband and I have always differed; he firmly believing that 99% of everyone you know has the potential to hurt you-would turn on you if it benefits them and I always believed that deep down (most) everyone is good and would go out of their way to not cause you pain, we now are about on the same level. He trusts no one completely and says that being this way keeps you safe from being hurt and disappointed and after my experience I am inclined to agree with that.
I used to freely offer my trust and go (way way) out of my way to help friends, friends of friends, etc. but now I shelter myself and call no one a true friend. I have always told Frank that I felt bad for him, sad for him that he was constantly waiting for friends to take advantage and never letting anyone in far enough to relax; now I just see him as smart and prepared.
And yes, I feel bad for myself and wish I could go back to when I trusted people until they gave me reason not to-but after what happened to me I feel that the consequences can just be to great to risk that.